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Each creation is
singular, and can be compared to no other spiritual activity, not even
to another creation.
But we may attempt to describe the process whereby it comes about: even if
its results are unique, the paths it follows are somehow subject to recurrence.
Normally an individuals spiritual energies are in a certain equilibrium,
spread out over the sequence of time in his life. Every lived instant has
required the investment of a small (or large) quantity of energy, which remains
indefinitely caught and involved in that moment. We leave a bit of ourselves
in every moment of our existence, we can go beyond it because we have yielded
something to that moment. Each individual, examining his own past, appears
distinct from himself in his memory, and thus, for this very reason, can remain
visible to himself. He can retain his past moments precisely because he has
lost them. The panoramic view, thus obtained, of the sequence of moments from
which we are detached, is subjectivity (sub-jectum), both the regulating principle
of the moderate, systematic expenditure allowing us to advance in life, and
that which, moment after moment, is systematically dissolved in it.
In particular circumstances undetermined by the will, the spirit reaches its
terminus and there is no more possibility of anticipation. At this point the
illusion of soaring high, which constitutes subjectivity, disappears, and
we belong to the moment, totally dedicated to the moment.
The energy concentrated in the act that founds subjectivity is then directly
returned to the present, free of any game of prestige. The keeping in view
turns into a letting go: an entire life switches signals from the bottom of
its roots. The center of gravity is reversed. In this reversal there occurs
a sort of releasing of energy which, because of it, has become excess.
Creation is not directly produced by a decision of the will, but is only an
unscheduled consequence: it occurs as a repercussion of the reform of the
spirit. But sometimes the complete reversal of the center of gravity is prevented
by an obtuse and invincible resistance, stemming perhaps directly from instinct
(creation is not a natural fact, in a certain sense it is unnatural). The
creators spirit is left in mid-air, suspended, no longer in equilibrium
yet still not reversed, in an exhausting struggle against itself.
The achieving of the reform can be fostered by a heroic insistence on an ecstasy,
by an unforeseen and upsetting sensation, by a trauma, like for instance cutting
off ones ear, or else, for such achieving, the creative potential may
let itself be spurred by the violence of a passion, a sorrow, or by other
subjects who unknowingly share, by their action, in providing the final shove
to the resistance the creators organism is opposing to creation. The
most incalculable act is actually the most coldly, shrewdly calculated, in
the Maelstrom of the spirit.
Alberto Madricardo
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